It's Opening Day for baseball and World Series Kind of Stuff is back in business after loving & taking full advantage of every moment in the off-season. It's been a over a month since my husband left for Spring Training. This was a particularly special training, as Logan was invited to Major League camp. I am so proud of him and beyond excited for what this season will bring!
But enough about him, let's talk about me. :)
The first three weeks away weren't all that challenging. I had planned enough activities, J. Hilburn appointments, and weekend get-aways to keep me occupied. In all honesty, it wasn't so bad having some alone time and catching up on books, shows, and diving into work. I went to visit in mid-March with my family, and figured these next three weeks before visiting would be just as easy. WRONG. It's finally hit me. It is day 19 of being back home and I've had two freak-outs.
I think my biggest issue -- well, I have several, but this is the one that I feel like sharing today -- is not feeling like a wife.
Since becoming a wife I haven't spent more than 10 days away from my husband. Not being with him physically means I have to watch our favorite TV shows alone, he comes home from a road trip to an empty (and dog-less) house, and when I'm sick (I've had some health issues lately) I have to rely on my mother, instead of my husband, to take care of me when I can't get out of bed.
Being married means getting to do all your favorite things with your favorite person. So what is the role of a wife that can only text, call and Skype -- that is, when the time change allows you to actually communicate... ??
So I did some soul searching to figure out what that means to me. It came to me one night while reading my Bible after Logan was pushed back and forth by the organization and wasn't sure which team he would be on this season.
While it is more difficult to communicate only over the phone and not face-to-face contact, it is a special relationship that takes practice and communication to maintain. As I wrote before in "Going the Distance," a long distance relationship is similar to a relationship with Christ.
Just as we rely on God -- talk to Him, read His word, have faith that He does all things for the good of His children -- we rely on our spouses. We have faith that He will see you through to the end. Have faith that you can disclose your worries & fears to him, and while he can't fix them like God, he will comfort you. Not necessarily in the physical sense by wrapping his arms around you or even verbally, but when you are commit to a holy covenant between God, your spouse and yourself, you have an obligation to have similar intentions as the Holy Father - love unconditionally, together or afar. While I hate being away, it's a rare love that can only be found in the most special of relationships.
So on this particular Opening Day, I celebrate the special meaning behind baseball-wifey-hood,
the goodness of God, and the deliciousness of nachos & beer.